God Won't Use Me, I'm Screwed Up.


I think all of us have a vision for what we want our lives to look like. However, more often than not, it never really works out the way we plan. Things happen, people make decisions that they aren’t proud of, and then all of a sudden things are messed up.

It’s what we do.

We fail.

My parents divorced when I was three. My older brothers were six and nine. I was five when my mom married my stepdad and six when my dad married my stepmom. All of a sudden I had a step-brother and then my mom and stepdad had my little brothers. That makes five boys and one girl. What a fun time. I was five and I had already had so much change in my life. When you’re young, all you want to do is watch Cinderella and eat fruit loops. I remember thinking it was a complete catastrophe.

While it was difficult, looking back, I can’t imagine what my life would be like without having gone through that. My stepdad wouldn’t be my stepdad. My stepmom wouldn’t be my stepmom. My stepbrother wouldn’t be my stepbrother. I wouldn’t have grown up with him. He wouldn’t have had my nephew. My mom and stepdad would not have had my two younger brothers. I would have never known my stepparents’ families.  All of these amazing people that are in my life now, wouldn’t have been if my parents didn’t get divorced.

No matter the situation, no matter the circumstance, Jesus meets us where we are and Jesus redeems us. (Eph. 3:20) He redeems our messy situations. He takes our baggage and carries it so we don’t have to. Jesus takes our sin, washes it away and makes us new. (Revelation 21:5) Jesus redeems us and makes beautiful things. So, no matter what situation you are facing, Jesus is willing to redeem it.


Jesus redeems us and makes beautiful things.

I just think: What about that 21 year-old year girl who was head over heels for the guy who she thought would never leave her and once he finally did, she was crushed? What about the lonely teenage boy who struggles at night behind closed doors? What about the 20-year-old college student who feels as if the only way to have fun is to drink themselves into a daze? 

When we hear stories like these, we tend to think that it was the most terrible thing that could have happened or we could have come out of. We think that nothing can ever fix the things we have done.

Jesus redeems us and turns broken things into beautiful things. If you’re struggling with addictions, He redeems you. If you’re constantly worrying, He redeems you. If you stumble when you’re with your friends and they’re talking about someone else, He redeems you. Whatever it is, Jesus runs to our side to make us new to live a better life with him.